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Subject:I wear my pancreas on the outside.
Time:08:31 pm
Current Mood:contemplativecontemplative

Apparently it's diabetes blog week? I could say a lot about type 1 diabetes, but I won't. I've lived 4/5 of my life with it - 20 out of the last 25 years. I know no other life. This IS my life. I really couldn't tell you if I would be different or the same without it. I have another 70 years of diabetes ahead of me, so dwelling on the "what ifs" really wouldn't get me anywhere anyway.

So, instead, here is my life in pictures.

If you want to donate to help find a cure for type 1 diabetes, or want to volunteer in a way, consider visiting http://www.jdrf.org .



Every day, I poke finger and make myself bleed. It feels a little like this (yes, that's real blood... and thanks to Greg for the photo idea!):



Every other day, I stab myself and shove a tube in my stomach. It's attached to an insulin pump. Instead of giving myself multiple injections every day, I wear the tube which continuously infuses insulin into my body (similar to how a working pancreas does it). It looks like this: 

  

If anyone ever came out with a poster looking like this, I would be the first to buy it: 



Without living with diabetes, you will never truly understand what it's like. I don't live a bad life and my childhood didn't suck horribley. But I did miss out on a lot. At the age of 5, I was responsible for my own life. I can't "forget" I'm a diabetic. I will never be rid of diabetes. Whether through pumping or through injections, insulin will always be my lifeline. Without it, I will die.

In every way, except one, I am just like you... I wear my pancreas on the outside.
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Subject:16 years ago, I was diagnosed with diabetes.
Time:07:32 pm
Current Mood:creativecreative
On December 23rd, I will "celebrate" my 16 year anniversary with diabetes. So I decided to write a poem/song/rap/whatever about it. It's to the tune of "Fresh Prince of Bel-Aire."

The Girl with Red Hair

Now this is a story
All about how
My life got flipped, turned upside down
And I'd like to take a minute
Just sit right there
And let me tell you all a story
About a little girl with red hair

On the east side of Des Moines
Born and raised
Outside is where I spent most of my days
Chillin' out, maxin', relaxin' all cool
And all playin' some two square outside in the street

When a couple of antibodies
Who were up to no good
Started makin' trouble up in my blood
They got in one little fight
And my beta cells got scared
They said,
"We're not producing insulin in this girl with red hair"

So I went to the hospital
And as I became aware
My blood sugars did what they wanted
And I didn't like what I saw in the mirror

If anything, I could tell that diabetes was scary
But I thought,
"Naw forget it
I'm the girl with red hair"

I went up to JDRF when I was 17 or 18
And I said to diabetes,
"Yo, homes, scare me later"

And I looked for a cure
We were nearly there
My goal is to raise money
And let others know I care
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Subject:Aw right, aw right
Time:02:45 am
Current Mood:productiveproductive
I am back in business.
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